Sep 22, 2021Litany Against FearI must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. A friend of mine goaded me into going to the cinema to see Dune. An awkward date, but a brave attempt to make the best out of a bad situation. You see, my wife’s hospital visit — the one where we’ll learn…Cancer3 min read
Aug 5, 2021Every Day Like It’s Your LastFinally, some good news from the oncologist. Well, sort of. The terms good news, and oncologist don’t exactly go hand in hand. The next step in my wife’s treatment will be stem cell therapy, which is what they call a bone marrow transplant these days to make it sound less…Motivation3 min read
Jul 28, 2021The Luxurious Lifestyle of a WriterHow does writing fit into a person’s life? Is it a hobby, a passion, a compulsion — there’s usually little difference between the two — a way of living, a habit, or perhaps a mindset? Often it’s all of those and still not enough to fit into anything well. Least…Writing Life4 min read
Jun 21, 2021Waking Up, June 2021Summer is here, and this time to stay. As evident by the air shimmering over the black asphalt, the parched grass of city parks, and the crowds of sweaty people fleeing Berlin towards one of the nearby lakes or hiking trails. Life is good, even if slightly tense.Berlin3 min read
Jun 10, 2021A Footnote That StungNever would I have guessed that something as small as a footnote could punch me in the face. And yet it did. Two quick jabs followed by a right hook. Here, this comes from Martin Amis’s Inside Story: “An illiterate, underbred book… the book of a self-taught working man, &…Writing3 min read
May 26, 2021The Two-Day Summer of 2021Ceciliengärten. Easy to miss if you don’t know how to get in. A garden walled-off by a fortress of old townhouses; tiled roofs glowing gold in the late afternoon sun; a stretch of lawn between two rows of chestnut trees; and a sizeable water fountain at the center. Happy families…Essay8 min read
Apr 27, 2021To Get It Out of the WayI’ve been trying to post something here for the last two weeks. But whenever I sat down to write, I got sidetracked by the sudden urge to give you an Update — not a mere lowercase update, oh no, but a proper one with a capital U — offering some…Essay2 min read
Feb 24, 2021The Reconfiguration of RealityOne of the major challenges of dealing with cancer is facing the unceasing reconfiguration of reality it causes. …Cancer3 min read
Feb 9, 2021The Bad Day GuiltLong-term wellbeing isn’t that hard to figure out. Exercise to stay in shape. Eat healthy food to feel better. Meditate to calm your thoughts, and journal to bring order to your mind. Avoid alcohol and tobacco to live longer. Stay hydrated. Save money by learning how to cook instead of…Productivity3 min read
Feb 3, 2021The Pin and The Rubber Band of HappinessWhat if I told you that the human pursuit of happiness is absolutely futile? That how happy or unhappy you are right now is dictated not by some objective measure, but rather the result of brain chemistry dictated by your genes? …Happiness3 min read